So long, 2010

So its the end of this year. Frankly, i say good riddance. it was fun, but im happy its over. So much has happened...this year i was in love, had my first breakup, fell out of love, lost friends, gained friends, doubted myself a whole lot more, became a whole lot stronger, and decided who i am. if thats not a full year i dunno what is ;)

Now. for my new years resolutions of 2011:

1. Lose the weight i gained freshman and sophomore year (cliche right?)

2. try to stop caring so much about what other people think of me

3. stop trying to find love. it can find me now.

4. less facebook, more textbooks

5. Live life, have fun with friends, most of them are graduating this year anyway

Probably the most important thing on that list is i need to stop trying to find love. What i mean is, no more looking for guys. If a guy wants me, he can come find me, i am DONE with liking people who arent gonna look my way. im putting my love in a better place. Im putting some of it into myself. i havent liked my body in a while, i need to start loving myself in my own skin before i can even think of a relationship. More importantly im going to start pouring my love into someone who really would appreciate it. I just signed up to sponser Tesline, a 7-year-old girl in Ghana whos comunity is affected by AIDS. This little girl deals with a heck of a lot more than i do, and she deserves someone to be there for her. thats my main concern for 2011

Happy new year, stick with those resolutions

peace and love,

rachel <3

something to think about...

HI-LO everybody :) hope everyone had a GREAT christmas and everyone is looking foreward to the new year. I wanted to really say something thats been on my heart, something everyone should take a second and think about. People always talk about the "spirit of christmas", you know, that thing that fills everyones heart and makes them want to give. I believe in that more than anyone, but i believe that spirit and those feelings shouldnt be limited to christmas alone. I think the world would be a better place if people would stop. just stop more. stop and look around, see if they can do anything to make someones day. If every person stopped once a week to go out of their way and do something nice for someone else, and those people payed that kindness foreward, things could change. People dont think that a small thing like paying for someones meal in a drive thru or helping a neighbor rake leaves can do much, but they dont look at how one good thing makes a ripple effect and can do a whole lot of good.

just a thought. try to go out of your way this week. only once or twice, but try it. it may do more for someone than you realize

pay it foreward <3

Rachel

i swear im going to start posting more!

I swear you never realize how busy you are until you look in a diary (or in this case on your blog) and see that i haven't written since august. Scouts honor i am SO writing more this month and in 2011. So this post i'd like to address the topic of love. and also christmas. be prepared for a rant. GO!

LOVE. think about the word for a minute. It's one of the most beautiful, and yet most painful thing humans can feel. How do you know when you're in love? usually the feelings are a little strange. A happy, warm feeling followed sometimes by a flop sweat and choking on your own tongue. Oh yeah, thats attractive. mmmmhhhmmm love is great to look at.... well it can be as long as both parties feel the same way. You know how you see a couple adn they just look so happy with each other? thats the great kind of couple love people "awwww :) " at. When you see a boy talking to one of his friends and she looks happy but is digging her nails into her arm to keep from shouting "SHUT UP I LOVE YOU" thats the one way love where people go "awww" more in pity. Heres what i think about love and christmastime: People say a lot of relationships can start around valentines day, but i think christmas is the loveliest time of the year. What says "i love you so much" more than a meaningful gift from someone who's been to shy to tell you their feelings? nothing!

This christmas, show someone you love them, dont wait till valentines day, you might lose them!